this has made me love him even more, is that weird? this is the most cutest reaction i have ever seen to a balloon popping. it was so random too because kang mireu was talking about this rabbit...and here is hyuksoo in his own world, playing with the balloon kang mireu got and then POP. lool. so precious.
you are not just handsome & charismatic. this drama shows how adorable you can be. and i love it. i love that you can play this kind of role. it shows a great side of you.
i just want to stick him in my pocket and keep him to myself...forever. i don't want anyone to snatch away this great man. i know it's selfish. sighh.

I am sooo happy that there is Lee Chang Sun. He made a lighter tunnel for me in life and I thank him so so much for that. Just for him being him. The upbeat, silly person he is, helped me get through rough bumps. I truly do not know how I would be now if it wasn't for him and I'm not exaggerating. Just typing this makes my eyes watery and I don't know why!
I hope he never changes and knows what a wonderful person he is. To everyone around him and all the good deeds he has done. He makes me smile and proud of him.
well thankyou to mblaq in general. i love all 5 boys unconditionally. they all mean so much to me. ;)

t seems that many people are so ungrateful towards their parents. the ones that piss me off the most are the ones when their parents give them so much but it's not good enough for them. they go off and say they hate their parents so much because things don't go their way. they don't realize how much their parents love them. those, to me, are spoiled brats that need a reality check. how can you act like that towards the people who brought you to this world and gave you food, a roof & a life over the years? you people disgust me. you should be damn grateful for everything you get. doesn't matter what it is, it's the thought that counts.

though he's a bit crazy...okay really crazy. but the fact that he loves 2ne1 and is a CL fanboy. OMG you're perfect. oh & to top it off, he looks up to Lee Byung Hun. GOOD CHOICE JUSTIN. GOOD CHOICE. and he's more cuter when he speaks in korean. hopefully he can start in the korean industry soon like a drama or movie or even a mv :) and i love the fact that him & brian are good friends. i just still can't get over the fact that he's 30. after I seen his other side, (not just the crazy side), he's pretty cool. :)

and i am extremely jealous. that's the place i want to go most right now. and he was like "well save up money and go with us!" and i was just like "yeah i could never have enough by then."
i'm sorry, but not everyone has money like you bro. i just can't save up like $2000 in a couple months.

besides....i rather go by myself before going with him lol. but i didn't tell him that of course. but i'm being totally serious. i would not enjoy myself if i went with him & his wife. it would be extremely awkward for one and two, i wouldn't be able to go the places i really want to go and enjoy myself. sometimes he's cool and sometimes he's someone i just want to slap. he'll just start complaining about other family members. oh and he loves talking about me behind my back to my sister and them. how i'm "weird" & dress different. whatever.
I'M GOING TO GO TO ITALY WITH HYUKSOO OKAY?

these are my ideal guys. both of them put together = perfect. they set my standards so high that i am WAY too picky when it comes to guys. everyone around me knows how picky i am. it's probably bad but i can't help it. it's probably bad that i care about looks just as much as personality. though i would never go for a guy who is really handsome but his personality is ugly and boring. i want one who is beautiful inside and out. i want one who has good style. more on the chic or rock chic side. one that takes good care of himself. someone who has a good head on their shoulders. either one who is handsome but has a dorky personality & a sweetheart like Joon. or one who is differently beautiful but is genuine, sweet & down to earth like HyukSoo. whatever, i don't care. i'm not rushing myself. i am going to wait until i find the right one. i honestly don't care if OTHER people think i need to find someone. i will find him when it's the right time. i'm only twenty and i rather enjoy life like this while i can.

they got me a pink & black hello kitty scarf from forever21 & also a hello kitty blanket/snuggie thingy haha. both i need and love so much!


hello kitty keyboard which i needed a new key board for my desktop computer. so this is wonderful. and the hello kitty watch that i really wanted ;___;


this is the best gift i ever had recieved. it's small because i am small & have small hands. and it's pink. i think i almost cried when i opened this. it's something i am so thankful for and something they didn't have to do but they did. & i also got a new desktop computer. my mom painted it pink for me and drew hello kitty on it. i needed a new computer (for my recordings / games / drama watching) and i was going to buy  me one. they shouldn't have done this. it probably was not cheap ;___; i just i don't know, i am very thankful and i love them so much. i am also glad they love what i got them.

oh & my nephew, who is 9, is so adorable. i gave him money for xmas. and i don't get to hang out with him much. but he's such a sweet heart & a dork. he took out this small Pikachu plushie & was like "i didn't get you an xmas gift so i am giving you this!" it was so sweeeet! <3 i love him haha. we spent the whole day playing wii. mario & rabbids go home.

it has been a pretty decent day. my brother, sister in law & nephew stopped by today. we did some chit chatting, exchanged gifts & then i played wii with my nephew :) then after they left, i went to get pizza with my dad and we had that for dinner and now i'm playing Mario Party on wii with my momma :) soon, we're going to open gifts since it's our tradition is this every year. we open on xmas eve.

that is definitely the saddest ending i've seen in a drama. More sad than I'm Sorry I Love You which was the saddest drama ever. But Tree With Deep Roots ending just beat it to the punch. not only did SoYi die, but Kang Chae Yoon fought & protected the king til his death for SoYi. Because he loved her & she told him as she was dying "you have to watch the letters spread & watch the king to give the definitions. for me." & then MooHyul, the king's top gaurd & basically his best friend, died just protecting him till the end.
OH and to just make it worse, YoonPyung (hyuksoo) died. it was so freaking sad because even though he was on the bad side, all he ever did was protect his leader, Jung Gi Joon. (the baddest) but how loyal he was, was amazing. As Jung Gi Joon was trying to escape, YoonPyung was by his side and protected him. his last words were on the lines of "Go. This is my place to die, it seems." & He smiled to him. Stupid Jung Gi Joon ran away and left YoonPyung on his own to fight. & Though YoonPyung was the best, all the royal gaurds were too much and they kept slicing him & cutting him. He kept going and going just to protect him. & As he realized one of the royal gaurds were shooting an arrow towards Jung Gi Joon, YoonPyung turned around and looked to Jung Gi Joon and saw the arrow go through his back. & that's when they finished off YoonPyung by stabbing a sword through his body. and the look on his face as he was dying, omg, that got me so bad. just thinking about it makes me cry. it really gets to me.
I don't know but this drama was good. Really good and HyukSoo did an amazing job. I am so proud of him. I actually want him to do more dramas like this. This drama is on my top favorites now.

it's like their perspective on him is complete opposite of his true personality. they claim he's cocky & he thinks he's better than all his members. that is what "judging a book by it's cover" is called honey. you don't do that because you will never know what's inside. Joon is one of the most sweetest people i've ever seen (next to Mir).
if him being the nicest to Thunder, when Thunder first came into the group, & taking good care of him is being cocky, i don't understand this world. according to alot of int. A+, Joon is very patient with them all and very sweet. He doesn't even praise himself. oh, when asked "who is most good looking member?" he said himself? So did Thunder & so did Mir. it's for entertainment. all members are like that. and Just because Joon has abs & shows them off, doesn't make him cocky. It's called stage performance. He said so himself he doesn't like flashing his abs but he has to because of stage concept. I never once got the vibe that he was cocky. I always got this silly kid babo who works his to his best.

how can you hate this call of sunshine? :)

that i got today. though they could have waited but they couldn't. they wanted to give them to me like RIGHT NOW. lol idk my friends are weirdos but i truly love them. because they know me sooo well and they spoil me so bad.

so i got these two from my friend, Katie. sooo....the hello kitty purse was this purse that i was going to ask for my parents last year for christmas but in the end i decided not to. and then this year again, my mom was like "do you want me to get you that hello kitty purse?" & i sat and thought about it and told her no that it was okay because i will get it eventually. WELL look who got it for me. while i was opening it, she was like "you better use this or i will be sad." & when i realized what it was, my mouth dropped & i was like "NO WAY NO WAY. THIS IS THE PURSE I WANTED." and she had no idea that i did :) good job my friend. she knows me too well. but i bet the purse was not cheap...sigh. so sweet of her and the Ninja Assassin just topped it off. now i can watch my *cough*hubby*cough* Joon whenever i want. :D i was in awe with this gift all night last night hehe.


 

and all these goodies are from my bestie, JiJae. she really spoiled me because i don't think that some of these were not cheap. well for one, I am so happyyy I got my Dolly Wink Lashes. but those are actually a late bday present from her (my bday was in april lol) so i just told her to get my bday gift with my xmas. and i haven't tried them yet though i was suppose to when i got home today...but i got too lazy. so now i'm going to here it from her tomorrow telling me i neeeeed to lol. but anyways, they're really pretty & these are my first pair of this brand so i'm excited. and the make up bag is def. from f21 which i needed a new travel make up bag & i love cheetah print. along with the two Love&Beauty nail polish (I LOVE THE BLUE ONE.) and the mirror / tweezers set which is also Love&Beauty i believe. & then she got me the cute hello kitty stuff. I THOUGHT the blush (the yellow hello kitty package thing) was hello kitty blush but she told me it wasn't. its from this japanese site & i guess they put it in the hello kitty wrapper o__o lol yeah. but totally happy with this gift. and she even put it in a Hello Kitty Gift bag :)

that's why i really never do. i try but i never have the right thing to say. so i feel useless in that department. but it's not because i don't care about my friends' situations. i just like being there and listening. i like being the person they want to rant to. and it makes me feel right that they can rant to me. i just hope they never take it as i don't care because i never really have nothing to say. because i do care. just in a different way. so hopefully you guys don't come to me for advices because i'm horrible at giving it.
i'm just good at listening and being there for you. well i think i am? that's why you guys stick to me...right?

12 color pallet from walgreens. 99 cents each! YES NINETY NINE CENTS GUYS. lol. and don't be fooled by the price because these are great. they hold 24m of eye shadow and have pretty shades. they are very well pigmented which i was surprised. i bought a shimmer pallet & a glitter pallet. the shimmer pallet is more of calm tones which i love the most. and the other one is more brown earthy tones. my walgreens is all out of stock on these, so if you guys are interested,  i'd say go get it soon.


wet n wild's coloricon called "I'm Getting Sun Burnt." pink, dark brown and gold. i think it was $2.99 which is a fair price. I LOVE THIS ONE. all 3 shades are so pretty and they fit my skin tone very well. shimmery (i love shimmery eyeshadow lol) and very very pigmented as well. i usually just wear the pink shade when i don't feel like doing much cuz it's the perfect shade. but i love using all 3 together. it's really nice. just the only thing is, don't put alot of dark brown on because it is VERY dark lol.


Loreal's Voluminous Million Lashes mascara. i spent about $9 on it though but it was worth it. i've been told by my friend that this a good mascara and read reviews. i've been looking for a new one, because my previous one (Rimmel Sexy Curves) isn't doing the trick no more. I have long lashes naturally and all I want is to have volume in my lashes and this is the first mascara that i found that works perfectly and does the trick. the only con is, it's not waterproof ;__; cuz i like waterproof mascaras, but oh well i guess.

e.l.f studio line blush. fuchsia fusion. only $3 because e.l.f is cheap but good quality. umm...i haven't tried this one yet lol. BUT i know e.l.f has good blush because i bought one of their blush/bronzer pallet and i love it but i wanted a poppin pink for my cheeks, and this color stood out. i think this will make my cheeks really pink but that's what i'm going for.

Revelon's new lipstick line called Lip Butter and i got the shade, Cupcake. and i honestly don't remember how much I paid for it since it had no price. But whatever the price was, IT WAS WORTH IT. this was the best product I bought and my favorite. though I didn't need another lipstick to add on to my lipstick collection. (i had abt 10 or 11 other ones but i gave 3 to my mom), but i heard that this new line was great. it goes on smooth and creamy. & it feels like lipgloss on your lips, so no dryness. & i have alot of other pink shaded lipstick like this, but this one is the best one. because it's more lighter and pinkier(?). idk how to really explain it. BUT it's ALOT like the lipstick shade you see in 2NE1's ettude house stuff. that baby pink, it's like that.

these words are so genuine and i know he means every single bit of it. the most nicest thing i have ever heard anyone say about the girls.
you truly truly are a wonderful person. not just a amazing designer, but you also have an amazing heart. your unconditional love and support for 2ne1, really touches me. I can tell you will always support them no matter what. you came all the way to NYC just for the girls, that's just amazing. you encourage them to just stay true to who they are. you are just so wonderful. and anyone who knows you and you care for is truly lucky. i hope one day in the future I get to work with you, if not, atleast meet you. it would be an honor, really. please never change, Jeremy. NEVER.

i want it just as much as i want to be in the music industry. is there something wrong for wanting two dreams? either one, i would be happy with. but for fashion industry, i want to be a model. but i have so much working against me, it sucks. i'm short, not your typical "skinny" girl that the model world wants. they say it's hard for asian girls to get into the industry, especially world wide modeling. even on ANTM, only TWO asian girls got in. only one made it far and made a name for her, which i look up to Sheena.
anyways, i know not every designer discriminates against those things....but it's rare to find someone who would accept them. especially when I'm only 5'1". i think i could only do beauty and i don't want to. i want to do editorial / high fashion. i want to be on the runways. i don't think i fit commercial or beauty. well in my opinion. i'm not your typical pretty girl where people go "wow you should be a model" or you awkward, interesting girl the designers would die for. i'm just me. a mixed asian/american/european girl that has a weird edge to me. i wish there was someone in the fashion industry that could accept me for me! but that's probably one in a million chance.  i know i sound negative but i'm just being realistic...

first of all, woah idek what happened with Angelea...she didn't do too bad i guess at the runway but is it mean of me to say that I was glad that she got disqualified? Anyways, I am very happy that Lisa won. My reaction when they should her as the final clip was ":O NO WAY YESSS." and my mouth was literally open. Finally someone I wanted to win, wins. Just watching her grow into a better person and get stronger, made me root for her and become her fan. Honestly, cycle 5, she was a total mess and at that time, i disliked her. But that was because I didn't know anything about what she went through in life. She didn't talk much about it until lately. Now I understand why she was like that, and I feel bad for that. She gives hopes to many girls out there who's been abused as a child. Proud of you Lisa for making it through. Also proud of you pulling it together this cycle and not doing things you would have done long time ago. You deserve it and hopefully you won't let no one tell you other wise. YEAHHH La Puchinetta OH lol.