it's like their perspective on him is complete opposite of his true personality. they claim he's cocky & he thinks he's better than all his members. that is what "judging a book by it's cover" is called honey. you don't do that because you will never know what's inside. Joon is one of the most sweetest people i've ever seen (next to Mir).
if him being the nicest to Thunder, when Thunder first came into the group, & taking good care of him is being cocky, i don't understand this world. according to alot of int. A+, Joon is very patient with them all and very sweet. He doesn't even praise himself. oh, when asked "who is most good looking member?" he said himself? So did Thunder & so did Mir. it's for entertainment. all members are like that. and Just because Joon has abs & shows them off, doesn't make him cocky. It's called stage performance. He said so himself he doesn't like flashing his abs but he has to because of stage concept. I never once got the vibe that he was cocky. I always got this silly kid babo who works his to his best.

how can you hate this call of sunshine? :)

that i got today. though they could have waited but they couldn't. they wanted to give them to me like RIGHT NOW. lol idk my friends are weirdos but i truly love them. because they know me sooo well and they spoil me so bad.

so i got these two from my friend, Katie. sooo....the hello kitty purse was this purse that i was going to ask for my parents last year for christmas but in the end i decided not to. and then this year again, my mom was like "do you want me to get you that hello kitty purse?" & i sat and thought about it and told her no that it was okay because i will get it eventually. WELL look who got it for me. while i was opening it, she was like "you better use this or i will be sad." & when i realized what it was, my mouth dropped & i was like "NO WAY NO WAY. THIS IS THE PURSE I WANTED." and she had no idea that i did :) good job my friend. she knows me too well. but i bet the purse was not cheap...sigh. so sweet of her and the Ninja Assassin just topped it off. now i can watch my *cough*hubby*cough* Joon whenever i want. :D i was in awe with this gift all night last night hehe.


 

and all these goodies are from my bestie, JiJae. she really spoiled me because i don't think that some of these were not cheap. well for one, I am so happyyy I got my Dolly Wink Lashes. but those are actually a late bday present from her (my bday was in april lol) so i just told her to get my bday gift with my xmas. and i haven't tried them yet though i was suppose to when i got home today...but i got too lazy. so now i'm going to here it from her tomorrow telling me i neeeeed to lol. but anyways, they're really pretty & these are my first pair of this brand so i'm excited. and the make up bag is def. from f21 which i needed a new travel make up bag & i love cheetah print. along with the two Love&Beauty nail polish (I LOVE THE BLUE ONE.) and the mirror / tweezers set which is also Love&Beauty i believe. & then she got me the cute hello kitty stuff. I THOUGHT the blush (the yellow hello kitty package thing) was hello kitty blush but she told me it wasn't. its from this japanese site & i guess they put it in the hello kitty wrapper o__o lol yeah. but totally happy with this gift. and she even put it in a Hello Kitty Gift bag :)

that's why i really never do. i try but i never have the right thing to say. so i feel useless in that department. but it's not because i don't care about my friends' situations. i just like being there and listening. i like being the person they want to rant to. and it makes me feel right that they can rant to me. i just hope they never take it as i don't care because i never really have nothing to say. because i do care. just in a different way. so hopefully you guys don't come to me for advices because i'm horrible at giving it.
i'm just good at listening and being there for you. well i think i am? that's why you guys stick to me...right?

12 color pallet from walgreens. 99 cents each! YES NINETY NINE CENTS GUYS. lol. and don't be fooled by the price because these are great. they hold 24m of eye shadow and have pretty shades. they are very well pigmented which i was surprised. i bought a shimmer pallet & a glitter pallet. the shimmer pallet is more of calm tones which i love the most. and the other one is more brown earthy tones. my walgreens is all out of stock on these, so if you guys are interested,  i'd say go get it soon.


wet n wild's coloricon called "I'm Getting Sun Burnt." pink, dark brown and gold. i think it was $2.99 which is a fair price. I LOVE THIS ONE. all 3 shades are so pretty and they fit my skin tone very well. shimmery (i love shimmery eyeshadow lol) and very very pigmented as well. i usually just wear the pink shade when i don't feel like doing much cuz it's the perfect shade. but i love using all 3 together. it's really nice. just the only thing is, don't put alot of dark brown on because it is VERY dark lol.


Loreal's Voluminous Million Lashes mascara. i spent about $9 on it though but it was worth it. i've been told by my friend that this a good mascara and read reviews. i've been looking for a new one, because my previous one (Rimmel Sexy Curves) isn't doing the trick no more. I have long lashes naturally and all I want is to have volume in my lashes and this is the first mascara that i found that works perfectly and does the trick. the only con is, it's not waterproof ;__; cuz i like waterproof mascaras, but oh well i guess.

e.l.f studio line blush. fuchsia fusion. only $3 because e.l.f is cheap but good quality. umm...i haven't tried this one yet lol. BUT i know e.l.f has good blush because i bought one of their blush/bronzer pallet and i love it but i wanted a poppin pink for my cheeks, and this color stood out. i think this will make my cheeks really pink but that's what i'm going for.

Revelon's new lipstick line called Lip Butter and i got the shade, Cupcake. and i honestly don't remember how much I paid for it since it had no price. But whatever the price was, IT WAS WORTH IT. this was the best product I bought and my favorite. though I didn't need another lipstick to add on to my lipstick collection. (i had abt 10 or 11 other ones but i gave 3 to my mom), but i heard that this new line was great. it goes on smooth and creamy. & it feels like lipgloss on your lips, so no dryness. & i have alot of other pink shaded lipstick like this, but this one is the best one. because it's more lighter and pinkier(?). idk how to really explain it. BUT it's ALOT like the lipstick shade you see in 2NE1's ettude house stuff. that baby pink, it's like that.

these words are so genuine and i know he means every single bit of it. the most nicest thing i have ever heard anyone say about the girls.
you truly truly are a wonderful person. not just a amazing designer, but you also have an amazing heart. your unconditional love and support for 2ne1, really touches me. I can tell you will always support them no matter what. you came all the way to NYC just for the girls, that's just amazing. you encourage them to just stay true to who they are. you are just so wonderful. and anyone who knows you and you care for is truly lucky. i hope one day in the future I get to work with you, if not, atleast meet you. it would be an honor, really. please never change, Jeremy. NEVER.

i want it just as much as i want to be in the music industry. is there something wrong for wanting two dreams? either one, i would be happy with. but for fashion industry, i want to be a model. but i have so much working against me, it sucks. i'm short, not your typical "skinny" girl that the model world wants. they say it's hard for asian girls to get into the industry, especially world wide modeling. even on ANTM, only TWO asian girls got in. only one made it far and made a name for her, which i look up to Sheena.
anyways, i know not every designer discriminates against those things....but it's rare to find someone who would accept them. especially when I'm only 5'1". i think i could only do beauty and i don't want to. i want to do editorial / high fashion. i want to be on the runways. i don't think i fit commercial or beauty. well in my opinion. i'm not your typical pretty girl where people go "wow you should be a model" or you awkward, interesting girl the designers would die for. i'm just me. a mixed asian/american/european girl that has a weird edge to me. i wish there was someone in the fashion industry that could accept me for me! but that's probably one in a million chance.  i know i sound negative but i'm just being realistic...

first of all, woah idek what happened with Angelea...she didn't do too bad i guess at the runway but is it mean of me to say that I was glad that she got disqualified? Anyways, I am very happy that Lisa won. My reaction when they should her as the final clip was ":O NO WAY YESSS." and my mouth was literally open. Finally someone I wanted to win, wins. Just watching her grow into a better person and get stronger, made me root for her and become her fan. Honestly, cycle 5, she was a total mess and at that time, i disliked her. But that was because I didn't know anything about what she went through in life. She didn't talk much about it until lately. Now I understand why she was like that, and I feel bad for that. She gives hopes to many girls out there who's been abused as a child. Proud of you Lisa for making it through. Also proud of you pulling it together this cycle and not doing things you would have done long time ago. You deserve it and hopefully you won't let no one tell you other wise. YEAHHH La Puchinetta OH lol.