for now though. they said if his hernia gets larger though, he's going to have to get surgery. but for now he just needs to go in every two weeks to the veteran clinic near and get a check up. i still just don't get why they can't just do the surgery now. I hate how they're all "it's not that bad YET so you don't need surgery now." i guess it can heal on it self but not 100% guarantee it will. so now he's just on meds...well i'm glad he's okay for now. now i feel much better...just still a little worried.

i feel horrible because i can't take him cuz i have to work ): it's a 3 hour drive from here also. hopefully i can pick him up and take him home when he is released. i kind of want to surprise him and come visit him tomorrow when i get out of work at 4. then i can stay the night at my sister's and leave for the morning in time for work on tuesday. but then i think my dad will say it's a waste. sigh i feel bad now ;___; he's been in a really good mood lately too and i've been loving it. right now he's playing a video game which he hasn't in a long time. and it's so funny. the things he says to the game and if he can't figure it out he calls me to do it.

looking back to their Oh Yeah debut stage & their performances....they were honestly, not all that great. as in they weren't the best at singing and dancing at the same time. But over the years they have progressed. I swear each time they promoted, they sounded better and better. Joon's & Thunder's vocals have improved. Mir's rapping has improved. G.O & SeungHo have always bee great at singing. Their songs have gotten better and better. If you listened to their MR Removed for the performances, you will notice and compared to alot of the groups promoting right now, their lives are amazing and flawless. Their vocals are just as fierced as their dancing in This War. I really am so proud of them because we watched them grow into great artists. To bad the society can't see what we see. As hurtful as the truth may be to some people, but the props always seem to go to the artists who can't sing live well with their pointless catchy songs. which isn't right...
I hope one day, MBLAQ can become like Big Bang. Big Bang is another group who has improved greatly. Looking back upon their LaLaLa performances to now. They weren't the best at live (though we know they are talented). Their songs couldn't make it to number one. But luckily Lies is what made their turning point. I hope MBLAQ can experience that kind of feeling one day.

i mean things i posted from my previous blog which was over a year ago...and there are still sources coming from there. and i remember posting that photo o__o that is so weird. sometimes i miss that blog but then i remember how peaceful i am at my current one. i barely get immature anons and people swarming my ask box all the time. i felt like nothing on my old blog anymore. i had over 4,000 followers on there. when i posted something personal, it seemed like no one cared. and even when i posted it was bleh. i was following too much so it was hard to keep up on my dash and i was getting tired of it. i just didn't feel happy there anymore. so when i left and made a new account, no one knew (only a few did know) that it was me. and actually my followers on my current one are so sweet and nice compared to my previous one. i am grateful, really :)

Vampire Idol is suppose to be a funny and laughable sitcom and it is! But I come to find myself getting teary eyed and sad and sometimes even cry with some parts. Actually it's moslty HyukSoo's parts. His character is so genuine and loyal to the Prince. He had a part time job (a dangerous one) to earn money just so he can buy things for the prince and make him happy. And the prince didn't realize how hard he was working and maybe took advantage of it? But HyukSoo didn't care and enjoys doing it and works even harder. As long as the prince is happy, so is HyukSoo. and there was just some parts that got to me. The prince would be like "oh buy us & Girls Girls some food" because the girls wanted it and HyukSoo would be like "Now?....Okay but it will have to be later." Because he ran out of money so he has to go work and get more. And then the part when WooBin had money but was selfish and kept it to himself just so he can buy popcorn. But then when he heard HyukSoo was working really hard for the prince, WooBin felt bad and cried. Gawd I really love this sitcom so much. I can't wait till they do their band. I want to hear HyukSoo sing so bad!

is because...i've been hooked on one of my video games. I haven't played video games by myself in a long time. And I use to be obsessed with this one game called Tomb Raider since i was like 6 or 7. & I have 8 of them. well I played 1, 2, 3, Revelations & Chronicles with my dad and we finished all 5 together. It was actually our bonding thing. And then when I got Angel Of Darkness I had to play it on my own since my dad lost his thumb a long time ago so he can't play anymore. And I got stuck on Angel Of Darkness (well more likely got too scared and stopped) and I haven't played it since 2009 lol. and then my sister (who got into the game because of me) gave me her Legends & Anniversary, abt a year ago, for PS2 since she plays it on PS3 now. So now I'm back to wanting to play again so I restarted AOD and i'm working on trying to finish it. My parents actually help me because they like watching it and help me with the puzzles. I actually got passed the part I got stuck on so i'm proud haha. And after I finish this game, I want to get the other two done because my dad got me Underworld (the newest from 09) for the PC. and I played the demo and I love it. So that's what I've been doing on my free time. Yeah, I really don't think i'm going to get PS3...though it would be nice but it's not worth it because I only wanted it for two games (Underworld & RE5) but looks like I am getting both for PC so, not worth it.
Oh & also about Tomb Raider, they're having a new one coming out this December. And when my sister told me about it, I was excited cuz it sounded great but apparently they are going to retell & reboot the original story of Lara (the character you play). starting from her being 21 getting stranded on a deserted island after a ship wreck. and she's probably the only human being on theren as in there will be some other "things" on the island that are horrible. they changed everything about her. Her whole appearance looks nothing close to what she's suppose to be. face to toes. Her voice and accent is changed. She seems more weaker. Even though she's a younger Lara, in Revelations, she was just a teenager and she looked more adventerous and tough than this. And like I said, they're changing her original story. I'm not really liking this though the game plot sounds good. but it sounds like since everyone wanted another Tomb Raider, they ran out of ideas. They should have just started a new game series. Why ruin one good series by changing everything around? You can't even keep her to look the same. I know graffics have gotten better, but even in the last one, Underworld, graffics were amazing and she still looked like Lara Croft. I think her original story was really good. about her father's death to her mother's death. To her friend's death and the monstrum and everything. Ugh so disappointed.

they're saying Mir has bad parenting skills because when DaYoung didn't want to eat, he pushed her to the side. But I actually understood his intentions of doing it. It may have hurt her feelings but he was basically doing it because eventually she will see that she's left out and think "oh i do want to eat it." Everyone is brought up differently and taught different things and doesn't make it the wrong way. And the reason why Mir is acting like a kid, is to be in the kids' levels and learn from it. and also Joon with Leo....I know Leo is a boy and he's rough but he's not supposed to be hitting people in the faces and yelling at his dads "YA" which is disrespectful. If you just let your kid going around hitting people, that's bad. My nephew was like that and he was a mean kid for a while. Joon "yelled" at him because he doesn't believe in being spoiled and getting away with things. I actually like Joon's way of parenting and I think he makes a really great father. He knows how to play with kids well and cheer them up. (which is a plus for me haha xD). Actually all five members are doing really well as parents. Taking care of three kids around the same age is tough but they're pulling through good. I'm very surprised and proud of them. Sigh, A+ have been really horrible lately. Complaining and being disrespectful. It's a shame because A+ use to be a wonderful fandom. I had a feeling this was coming though because once A+ grew, it wasn't going to be the same anymore. Please just don't disappointed our boys and tear them up inside. They've gone through enough.

don't know if I ever mentioned this, but whenever I dream of JiYong....he always never talks to me and ignores me in my dreams. it's so weird. one time, I got so mad because I was talking to him and he ignored me so I took my anger on everyone else and ignored everyone in my dream. But last night....all he did was pay attention to me. o__o because HyukSoo was in my dream and usually when I dream of him, I'm with him. but he left me and went with someone else...so later there was this thing with cupcakes. and while everyone was throwing them to eachother. JiYong took the time and walked over and fed it to me...lol. and he smiled too. even in my dream I was shocked he acted this way. I don't know but that was dream was not normal to me.

i just came home from work & my dad told me to come down stairs for a moment. i was thinking he was going to show me something. but lately his stomach has been hurting like he pulled something when he shoveled a couple days ago and comes to find out he did. and now he has like bubbles on his stomach from it so now he has to go to the VA (Veterans Administration) hospital on monday and get surgery done because if he don't, his guts and everything will eventually burst out. ): so i am really worried about him right now and he's telling me not to worry but it sounds bad. he was going to have my uncle take him down since this hospital is three hours away, but i might call off work monday or couple days cuz i want to take him myself since my mom can't drive. i'm just very worried and hopefully surgery goes well for him ;___;