i really don't know why. too much on my mind right now. trying not to feel down about anything but i feel really bummed. and i keep thinking about things i probably shouldn't. like i'm getting confused and i shouldn't be. but it's not my fault i am confused... i just don't want to be disappointed at the end. i don't like these two things piling up in my mind.
i don't even feel like talking on the phone with anyone nor feeling like talking much in general. like i'm even annoyed to talking to one of my friends on the phone at the moment. i even told her yesterday i just don't feel like talking. hopefully she didn't get mad. sigh i feel bipolar actually. UGH i need to stop feeling negative like this. what's wrong with me ):